I missed my morning rendezvous with Ben; I was physically off synch, my blood pressure was out of control, I had severe nausea, felt overly worn out… I realized just how demanding the last couple of days have been for me on every level. I’m always discreet about my health condition because I know it will freak everybody out and derail the whole day, and I hate that, especially as the vibe has been so alive and real. And today is Jeff’s birthday. The last thing I wanted was for him to worry about me. He’s been such a caring brother over the years, and I figure he could use a little break from concern and drama — a major break, should I say. There would be so much to talk about regarding our relationship: that is a book in itself. A TV series would be quite a voyage to explore, when reality is way crazier than fiction. I guess it might be preferable to wait a few years still… It’s funny only to think of it though! I used to laugh telling Jeff that Timothée Chalamet could play my role and Dany De Vito could play his. It’s already a hit in your head, right?!