{"id":3114,"date":"2022-05-15T10:01:25","date_gmt":"2022-05-15T14:01:25","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/alexhenryfoster.com\/journal\/?p=3114"},"modified":"2022-05-16T09:25:58","modified_gmt":"2022-05-16T13:25:58","slug":"edition-23-time-is-now-and-now-im-free","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/alexhenryfoster.com\/journal\/edition-23-time-is-now-and-now-im-free\/","title":{"rendered":"Edition #23<br> Time Is Now\u2026 and Now I\u2019m Free!"},"content":{"rendered":"\t\t<div data-elementor-type=\"wp-post\" data-elementor-id=\"3114\" class=\"elementor elementor-3114\" data-elementor-post-type=\"post\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-b90eb60 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"b90eb60\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-e-type=\"section\" data-settings=\"{&quot;background_background&quot;:&quot;classic&quot;}\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-66f7e534\" data-id=\"66f7e534\" data-element_type=\"column\" data-e-type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-d85a70e elementor-widget elementor-widget-theme-post-featured-image elementor-widget-image\" data-id=\"d85a70e\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-e-type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"theme-post-featured-image.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<img fetchpriority=\"high\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"819\" height=\"1024\" src=\"https:\/\/alexhenryfoster.com\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/ahf_journal_edition022-819x1024.jpg\" class=\"attachment-large size-large wp-image-3141\" alt=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/alexhenryfoster.com\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/ahf_journal_edition022-819x1024.jpg 819w, https:\/\/alexhenryfoster.com\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/ahf_journal_edition022-240x300.jpg 240w, https:\/\/alexhenryfoster.com\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/ahf_journal_edition022-768x960.jpg 768w, https:\/\/alexhenryfoster.com\/journal\/wp-content\/uploads\/ahf_journal_edition022.jpg 960w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 819px) 100vw, 819px\" \/>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-1e39cfd1 elementor-widget elementor-widget-spacer\" data-id=\"1e39cfd1\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-e-type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"spacer.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-spacer\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-spacer-inner\"><\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-521c9e20 elementor-widget elementor-widget-theme-post-title elementor-page-title elementor-widget-heading\" data-id=\"521c9e20\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-e-type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"theme-post-title.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<h2 class=\"elementor-heading-title elementor-size-default\">Edition #23<br> Time Is Now\u2026 and Now I\u2019m Free!<\/h2>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-7a28928a elementor-align-center elementor-mobile-align-center elementor-widget elementor-widget-post-info\" data-id=\"7a28928a\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-e-type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"post-info.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<ul class=\"elementor-inline-items elementor-icon-list-items elementor-post-info\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<li class=\"elementor-icon-list-item elementor-repeater-item-8d55559 elementor-inline-item\" itemprop=\"datePublished\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<span class=\"elementor-icon-list-text elementor-post-info__item elementor-post-info__item--type-date\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<time>15\/05\/2022<\/time>\t\t\t\t\t<\/span>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/li>\n\t\t\t\t<\/ul>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-61c5562b elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"61c5562b\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-e-type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p>I hope you are doing great, my dear friends, that you\u2019ve been able to embrace some of the beauties and wonders springtime has to offer already. The colors of this new season are in full bloom all over the mountains where I have the blessing to live. The spectacle offered by nature is quite phenomenal presently. And even if I\u2019ve been able to witness the full-scale rebirth and evolving transformation happening all over here, I still can\u2019t believe how fast the last couple of weeks went by\u2026 I mean, I only noticed it a few days ago when one of you asked me about <a href=\"https:\/\/open.spotify.com\/playlist\/7f8Yg60Gwnr2QZ47wVr1yD?si=2368a8808d504c88\">my playlist<\/a>. And I was like, \u201cYes, what about it?!\u201d until I realized that it\u2019s already been 6 weeks since I had last updated it. I was stunned. Time went by so incredibly fast and such realization has never been a positive sensation for me, as I always feel like I\u2019m running out of time. At the very least, I always find myself hoping for the clock to stop a few seconds once in a while, just so I can go a little further, see what could be discovered if I keep pressing on still\u2026 But no, here I am. The month of May is already a thing of the \u201cnow\u201d and leaving for my upcoming tour is about to be a \u201cwhat, tomorrow, really?!? IMPOSSIBLE. Well, I better be packing a few of my countless black shirts!\u201d event.<\/p><p>In fact, time is a recurrent theme for me. When I said to the other band members that I felt like hadn\u2019t done much, Ben and Jeff burst in laughter, which is pretty common. Not the laughing at me part \u2014 well maybe a little \u2014 but mostly the \u201cI haven\u2019t done much\u201d part.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-4b4bf11b elementor-blockquote--skin-quotation elementor-widget elementor-widget-blockquote\" data-id=\"4b4bf11b\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-e-type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"blockquote.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<blockquote class=\"elementor-blockquote\">\n\t\t\t<p class=\"elementor-blockquote__content\">\n\t\t\t\tI guess it\u2019s true; it is a process, but a confusing one for me nonetheless.\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/blockquote>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-5bb47a37 elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"5bb47a37\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-e-type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p>\u201cAlex, you\u2019ve probably established a world record for the most personal postcards ever sent by one individual in the internet era. You wrote a new musical project which we played live and did a <a href=\"https:\/\/smarturl.it\/ahf-atvcollection\">direct-to-vinyl<\/a> with it, that you also accompanied with personal letters. You did interviews. You supported our Ukrainians friends at <a href=\"https:\/\/musicsavesua.com\/\">Music Saves UA<\/a>. You just released the song <a href=\"https:\/\/found.ee\/thepoweroftheheart\"><em>The Power of the Heart<\/em><\/a>. You are in motion to complete a set of new additional songs to be shared with the people in another live stream. All that while working on your <a href=\"http:\/\/alexhenryfoster.com\/tour\">upcoming tour<\/a>\u2026\u201d is what I was answered with. And they kept on going on, and on, and on\u2026 Until I had to surrender a battle I knew I had absolutely no chance to win from the very start.<\/p><p>The thing is, as right as they probably are \u2014 and I know they are \u2014 I just feel like I\u2019ve wasted the beginning of the year over everlasting issues. And If I have never wanted to compensate by overdoing a whole lot of things to somehow make amend for that loss, it brings a strange sensation of guilt, frustration, and disappointment when I realize just how easily I let time pass me by with my continued struggles to let go of past worries, just how much power I gave others over my existence, my happiness, my peace and freedom\u2026 I may be trying to convince myself that it\u2019s a part of growing, of allowing my open wounds to heal once and for all, that it\u2019s the emancipating process that will grant my heart the freedom I long for. I guess it\u2019s true; it is a process, but a confusing one for me nonetheless. Time seems like a masterful entity I\u2019ve learned to kneel before, and that for as long as I can remember. How strange\u2026 That\u2019s why my closest friends are so prompt and vigorous at reminding me who I am, beyond time and projects, beyond my distorted perspective of it all\u2026<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-43ec320b elementor-blockquote--skin-quotation elementor-widget elementor-widget-blockquote\" data-id=\"43ec320b\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-e-type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"blockquote.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<blockquote class=\"elementor-blockquote\">\n\t\t\t<p class=\"elementor-blockquote__content\">\n\t\t\t\tIt all started going faster and faster, and it kept on going, a song after another, a new idea after another. New desires, new sensations, renewed visions, renewed determination to be.\t\t\t<\/p>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/blockquote>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-1b6df8e8 elementor-widget elementor-widget-text-editor\" data-id=\"1b6df8e8\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-e-type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"text-editor.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<p>I can\u2019t recall how often Jeff and Ben have told me something in the likes of: \u201cYou have to appreciate what you give life to, Alex, but that\u2019s only possible if you are willing to be proud of who you are, if you want to make peace with the notion of losses you\u2019ve always been fighting with. That\u2019s how you can defy time. That\u2019s how you can shed light over the bleak way in which you torture yourself. You\u2019re not alone, brother.\u201d This is a battle I will have to deal with all my life, some days being better than others. And if 2022 felt like a loss already back in January, it is the project <em>The Power of the Heart<\/em> that essentially brought me back to the light. It is my complete abandonment to its singular essence that woke me up, that what felt like slow-motion self-imposed misery, started to gain momentum, just like Tim Burton\u2019s movie <em>Big Fish<\/em> (one of my all-time favorite movies). It all started going faster and faster, and it kept on going, a song after another, a new idea after another. New desires, new sensations, renewed visions, renewed determination to be, to give happiness and freedom the right measure of faith, the proper place in my otherwise cynical and defeatist state of heart and mind. If I never dared ask myself the right questions, it\u2019s the acceptance that I might never have \u2014 nor ever find \u2014 the answers to any of them that gave place to a profound comfort within me, a rare solace I\u2019m no longer afraid to embrace and be transformed by. And just like that, it is the month of May\u2026 And tomorrow will come shining sooner than I can see its luminescence come my way in the far-distance strand\u2026<\/p><p>Time is now\u2026 and now it\u2019s time to dream, to be free!<\/p><p>Much love always,\u00a0<br \/>Alex<\/p><p>PS: My playlist has indeed been updated, and you can read all about the new choices <a href=\"https:\/\/alexhenryfoster.com\/evolving-through-the-sounds\/\">here<\/a>.<\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-3bc48325 elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"3bc48325\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-e-type=\"section\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-42f07ff0\" data-id=\"42f07ff0\" data-element_type=\"column\" data-e-type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-29bd8ce7 elementor-widget elementor-widget-spacer\" data-id=\"29bd8ce7\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-e-type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"spacer.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-spacer\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-spacer-inner\"><\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<section class=\"elementor-section elementor-top-section elementor-element elementor-element-6dda9cba elementor-section-boxed elementor-section-height-default elementor-section-height-default\" data-id=\"6dda9cba\" data-element_type=\"section\" data-e-type=\"section\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-container elementor-column-gap-default\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-column elementor-col-100 elementor-top-column elementor-element elementor-element-6221630b\" data-id=\"6221630b\" data-element_type=\"column\" data-e-type=\"column\">\n\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-wrap elementor-element-populated\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-element elementor-element-dc43e71 elementor-align-center elementor-widget elementor-widget-button\" data-id=\"dc43e71\" data-element_type=\"widget\" data-e-type=\"widget\" data-widget_type=\"button.default\">\n\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-widget-container\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<div class=\"elementor-button-wrapper\">\n\t\t\t\t\t<a class=\"elementor-button elementor-button-link elementor-size-xl\" href=\"https:\/\/alexhenryfoster.com\/journal\/ask-a-question\/\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t<span class=\"elementor-button-content-wrapper\">\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<span class=\"elementor-button-text\">Ask a Question<\/span>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/span>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/a>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/section>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I hope you are doing great, my dear friends, that you\u2019ve been able to embrace some of the beauties and &#8230; 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