Survival Is Holding On, Living Is Letting Go

It was particularly significant of a unique rendezvous, as the funeral was held on the first anniversary of my heart surgery. To see old friends was even more symbolic in a way, especially as I’m not very good with relationships. While I’m trying to be present as much as I can, my mind is usually all over the place, and it’s even worse since I have a phone. Can you believe I didn’t have a phone until about 6 months ago? No wonder people were laughing, saying “Alex is not a fish you can catch” when we all realized that the last occasion on which we had seen each other was at a previous funeral, 9 or 10 years ago, and before that was my father’s one. It would be a good thing to break that creepy cycle, I guess. It was even clearer of a reality when one said that one year ago, they could have been assembled for my funeral… Creepy indeed, even though mine would have been sponsored by Patron Tequila and Uber; if you are to gather in remembrance of a dear one, better make it about celebrating life! But still, it was quite a strange sensation to know now that it could have been me…